I've encountered so many different types of people and because of them, I think I've changed. I tried not to judge people now because I don't want them to judge me. In the past, when people ask me how I feel about Justin Bieber, I would just be straightforward and say "He suck. I hate him to the core. He is a fucking gay." but now that I think about what had happened to me, I feel kinda bad for him. So now, I would just say "He is not that bad and I don't really hate him." Oh well, try being in his shoes for a while. You wouldn't be happy if you know all the people other than your fans, friends in my case, are against you. Actually, regarding the picture above, I'm not really that pissed off because I don't think you are worth my time but your little retarded actions are just too irritating. I'm trying not to cuss here in order to keep my blog clean but oh well, you will never read this anyway. So I'm just gonna make it an exception for this post. I hope you never read this post, not because I'm scared but because I don't want you to know what I'm talking behind your back. I know i'll just hurt you if you found out. Oh well, you kinda forced me into this. I'm not blaming you but what you did can never be changed. I just have the urge to make you regret everything you said and be careful of what to say and what not to say in the future. I'm waiting for the day where you will regret everything you did wrong and the funny part is, I don't think you know that you're wrong.

Now that I think of what happened. It just pissed me even more. You are so dense that you didn't realized what you did is making me hate you. I don't know if this ever happened to anyone else but I fucking hope not. You always tell me not to ignore you when I get to know your friends. I promised you but I'm afraid I've to break my promise. It's not like I fucking wanna break it but you are the one who make me so fucking pissed. I kept telling myself that you are not worth it but you know what? I treat you as my friend so that's why I'm so fucking pissed when I heard about everything. I know the feeling of losing friends very well. That's the reason why I didn't tell you off in your face. People say "Don't change for other people's sake, just be yourself." But what if someone hates the 'me' now? I don't wanna lose any more friends. Oh well, thanks to my temper, I think I might drive some away. However, since you told me that you like me. It somehow gave me the feeling whereby you won't ever leave. But for you to tell him about the issue where I asked my friends for opinions just make me so fucking angry. I know I'm too sensitive and gets angry over small little things. I told you not to tell anyone. You swear you won't ever fucking tell anyone about this and now what? You trying to piss people off on purpose isit? I think now I know why people starts ignoring you when they know your friends. Originally, I thought that it must be their problems but now, it's because of your fucked up personality. You might not realize it but it just annoy the hell outta me. I know you want me to discuss more about relationship stuff with you. It's kinda obvious but I'm not fucking interested that's why I asked you to concentrate on your studies and if best, aim for express next year. But sometimes, you really do sound like a love-sick puppy. I don't get why people can change their love interest so fast. It gives me the insecure feeling. If you can't get into express course, then don't bother about anything and focus on studying. Maybe you feel cool if you've got a girlfriend or something. I don't know. But stop thinking like the girl owe you because she ignored you because it's most likely something you did/say.

I'm actually blogging about you now is because I don't wanna bottle up all my feelings cuz I know I will snap one day if I don't rant now. I don't wanna quarrel with you neither do I wanna hurt you. I hope someone can change you or wait. Just learn how to keep secrets to yourself and not spread it to other people and beg them to help you to keep the secrets for you otherwise you might die. You should totally stop this. You know why? It's because it sound worthless and retarded. You've got good friends around you who really cares alot about you and treat you as if your his own brother. He even asked me to forgive you. Unfortunately, I must admit that I'm not really a very forgiving person. All I need is time. I just hope you wouldn't like or comment on my status on Facebook. It just makes me wonder "How much do you fucking know? If you don't know anything, please don't anyhow like and say you random like my status when I ask you "why are you liking this shit." or etc." You offend people in another way and I just can't forget about you telling him about the friend's opinion part. Oh my fucking god. I can't believed I fucking asked for opinions for your sake. Suddenly, I have the urge to stop fucking around and be serious. I bet you will just ended up with no friends if this keeps up but you've got such awesome friends. Maybe I shouldn't update in the first place. It just reminds me of what you did which is so fucking retarded. I don't wanna hate you though, I just feel like giving you a tight slap and give you a lesson on 'What to say and what not to say.' or rather 'What CAN say and what CAN'T be revealed.' It's just pointless to call it a secret between the two of us if you tell a third party.

I know I'm straightforward, mean, sensitive, easily provoked, not so easy-going on certain issues and is a fucking bitch but you are just one of those people whom I won't even try to change for your sake. You don't know what I've been through and how many times I cried over small little stupid things. You just don't know me well. You don't really know my personality but I don't really know you too. I'm sorry for judging you but that's what I see from you. I think you just think that I'm straightforward thats all. This is why I know you don't like me in the love me type. I just wonder how could you fucking say that you like me at first when you know absolutely nothing about me. If only I never fucking know you in the fucking first place so that now, I won't fucking know what kind of fucked up personality you have which describes what kind of fucking asshole you are and it is currently making me so fucking pissed off cuz I thought you looked so fucking innocent when you are a fucking backstabber and guess what, I just hope you will fuck off and for fuck's sake, don't ever fucking bother me or I'll just fucking hurt you and ask you to fuck off. I think I'm finally done ranting out annoying things spinning in my head. Sorry for the massive cussing, I just couldn't help it.

HAIARIGATOUGOZAIMASUSAYONARA!~ O:)

300511 is the last day of our CIP trip. I can't really remember the details much but I think we went to a restaurant to eat before going to the organic farm! The restaurant had two big awesome fish which is about the height's length. Kinda creepy cuz I'm scared of fishes too. After that, I was kinda scared cuz I think that there would be caterpillars and earthworms all over the place. Well, its an organic farm so it would be natural to have insects and all. However, I think I was lucky cuz I didn't see anything until I saw an earthworm struggling at the side. EEK. I feel like puking now. We saw animals like rabbits, and ducks and etc. We even bought an ice-cream cuz the weather is too hot and I HATE warm weathers. We took a look inside a random shop at the organic farm and I took many random pictures of random people. Ms Chiang discovered that I took a picture of her and she immediately snatch it and deleted the picture. After that, we left Malaysia for Singapore. I kinda miss Malaysia now, especially the orphanage! I hope I will be able to go back there again. I don't expect any of the orphans to remember me, okay, at least that particular boy. He is so sweet and kind. Our trip back to Singapore was unexpectedly short unlike the time we went to Malaysia. Okay enough of reminiscing time. My purpose of updating my blog is actually to rant about something, not describing how much fun I had in Malaysia.

KAYARIGATOUSAYONARA!~ O:)

290511 is the second day as well as the most hectic day of our CIP trip. At the morning, we went to have our breakfast inside the hotel and the air-conditioner seems to be free cuz it's cold. We went to the famous twin towers and took pictures! I took pictures with Mr Hafiedz and my friends. I wonder how many pictures have me as background that day. After that, we went to Malaysia's most famous Chocolate factory, Beryl. I bought Mango chocolates, Strawberry chocolates and Blueberry chocolates. It was kinda expensive but as long as it's delicious, I think it's worth it. I brought some for my friends and my mum. After that, we went to a Museum. We had lunch at KFC and the song 'baby' by Justin Bieber kept on repeating. My group was the last table served. I think they forgot our presence for a moment. Oh well, as long as I receive my food, I won't grumble so much. By the way, the KFC salad is the most disgusting salad ever. Oh, I was kinda nervous and afraid cuz I am going to an orphanage in the afternoon to tell them stories. I am worried as I am not good with kids and I don't really know how to manage them as I am short tempered. Especially towards young kids, I will bankai even more easily. When we reached the orphanage, we started to split into 3 groups to entertain the kids. My group was suppose to do story telling but we didn't even get the chance to tell our stories. It was kinda a good thing cuz I don't wanna act! So we ended up interacting with them, I saw Mr Hafiedz playing soccer with some 5 years old child. I didn't know that Mr Hafiedz was so friendly towards kids. Oh well, I pity those orphans. When I first came, I thought that all of them would just emo in one corner and be quiet. However, it's exactly the opposite of what I thought! They were hyperactive, cheerful and not to mention extremely violent! I don't get why their parents would abandon such cute kids. They should just die in a hole. Later on, we helped to clean the place up. Me and Yolanda cleaned the windows while the others sweep the floor and etc. We were amazed when we see how clean the windows are as compared to the previous ones. I get to know some orphans. One is called Justin. He is very violent and is an attention seeker. A few of the others whom I get to know was called Charlie, Linda, a horny guy and Melvin! Melvin is the cutest boy ever! He is kinda shy but friendly! I gave him what I've got and he seems happy. Suddenly, I felt like crying because it was the time when we gotta go and bid our goodbyes. I think I am gonna miss him and I will wait for him to add me on Facebook! As we promised. I hope he will remember me. Oh well, kids are kinda easy to bribe cuz Melvin was originally Bryan's gang then he came over my side! After we left the orphanage, we ate spaghetti buffet for dinner and was given half an hour to shop around the mall. When we went back to our hotel, we had a briefing for the next day. After that, we went back to our own rooms respectively and washed up. We went over to Laoba and LaoPa's room again, after the spot check. When Ms Chiang and other teachers came, me and LaoMang was about to eat Yogurts! Ms Chiang walked in to check if everything was fine. LaoMang thinks that Ms Chiang saw her... Kay never mind. We went party at the other room. It was awesome but scary! I think I was nearly raped! We went back to our rooms abit later and we decided to watch some time capsule movie at Star Movie Channel. It was kinda scary but nice! Unfortunately, we both fell asleep at around 2+AM I think. I woke up at 3+AM to off the television and went back to sleep cuz I was too tired!

Sayonara! O:)

Part 2 is coming up! Be patient!

Sayonara! O:)