Every time when shit happens, I panic and lose control. All I'm capable of is cry and apologise. I love you! I decided to be stronger and be by your side whenever you need me. Apparently, I'm the one who needs you more than you need me. I don't have experience in relationship at all. Every time things will go wrong but I lasted the longest with you. That's why I'm afraid to lose you. I've never experience the pain of breaking up and I don't ever wanna feel that way. Sometimes when you are angry, I have no idea how to approach you. I've been resisting myself from asking you 'you okay anot?' but I seriously don't find anything wrong with this sentence. Maybe it's just that you don't like it. But what should I do? When you are not talking and something is bothering you, I'll be sad too. I just can't keep my bloody mouth shut. Sorry I repeated my mistake. I guess I'm just too immature. I'll change! I just thought that maybe I can be myself when I'm with you. I just wanted to tell the whole world I have the best boyfriend. But I didn't realize that I'm seeking too much attention. The problem is, I didn't realized that you don't like it. I'm sorry I'm selfish! I always mood swing and get pissed off over little things easily. Like when I see you taking picture with your student, I get jealous. When you message girls, I also get jealous. Am I thinking too much? I really can't help it. I'm sorry that all I can do is apologise. I just hope that you won't ever get tired of me. Please don't ever leave me. I'm scared.